The scales changed but the way I felt about myself didn’t. No matter what I weighed, I always felt fat.
Are you tired of feeling ashamed of your body? Ashamed that you can’t get pregnant because of your size?
Do you stay awake worrying every night that it’s all your fault you’re not pregnant. Your fault because you’re too fat?
Are you ready to do something different, instead of another weight loss program?
Honestly they make it sound so simple. Like it’s as easy as eating a bit less, moving a bit more and the weight will drop off.
Don’t they realise that if it were that easy, you’d have done it years ago?!
Don’t they understand that you’ve been trying to lose weight your whole adult life?
And now, they’ve told you that the reason you can’t get pregnant is because you’re fat.
As if you didn’t hate your body enough already, now you have a ever bigger reason to be filled with shame and disgust. If only you could eat less, exercise more and lose the weight, you’d have everything you ever wanted.
But you must be the most greedy, awful person in the world if you can’t even lose enough weight so that you can make your baby.
I’ve been fat for as long as I can remember. The numbers have changed but the feelings didn’t, no matter what weight I was, I always felt fat.
I was diagnosed with PCOS at 16 and I was told that I wouldn’t be able to have kids.
I spent my teens and my twenties going from one diet to the next, trying desperately to find the one thing that would help me lose weight and keep it off. I never succeeded.
When I was ready to start my family, I was the biggest I’d ever been and my cycles were still irregular. On the surface, it looked like it was going to be impossible for me to get pregnant.
But it wasn’t.
I conceived both my boys easily and had healthy pregnancies and healthy babies. So how the hell did that happen? If being fat causes fertility issues, how on earth did I get pregnant so easily? Was I just lucky?
I don’t think so.
I know that you think about food every single second of every single day. That you obsess about whether to go to the shop at lunchtime and buy a bag of mini eggs or if you’ll be “good” today and eat the carrots sticks in your bag instead.
I know the scale dictates to you every morning whether you are allowed to be happy or miserable today. Lost a pound? You’re allowed to enjoy your day. Gained a pound? You’re a disgusting person who must try harder and eat even less today.
I know you feel the need to punish yourself with exercise because you ate a chocolate biscuit when you got home or because your body doesn’t fit into your favourite jeans anymore.
I know you cry everytime you leave the doctors surgery because you feel like you’ve failed yet again to lose the weight you need to get the blood tests you need to figure out what is going on with your hormones.
I know you secretly worry that your husband won’t love you anymore because you’re so fat and can’t give him the family he desperately wants.
I don’t want you to punish yourself with calorie restrictive diets and cruel exercise schedules so that you reach the magic weight only to put it all back on again when you return to normal life.
I don’t want the endless yo-yo dieting and quest to get pregnant to consume your life anymore.
Imagine being able to stand up for yourself and get the medical care you need right now, not in 2 stone (or 10kg) from now.
Imagine making decisions about the food you eat from a place of knowledge rather than fear.
Imagine feeling joy when you move your body, rather than punishing it.
Imagine feeling better in your own skin than you’ve ever felt before.
If you’re ready to take your life back now, then my new group program, Fat to Fertile, is exactly what you’ve been waiting for.
First things first – This is not a weight loss program.
This is a “be healthy, get pregnant and fuck what anyone thinks about your size” program.
Together with a small group of women, we’re going to explore what it means to be a fat women trying to get pregnant in today’s society.
Over six weeks, we’re going to break free from the beliefs that have held us in fear about our bodies for so long and unravel all the shit we’ve accumulated in our heads about what it means to be fat, what it means to try and get pregnant and what we think about ourselves.
We are going to get clear on:
- how we can create the optimal environment for a healthy pregnancy even when you’re fat
- what to do with other people’s opinions (clue – how to nicely tell them to stick it up their ass!)
- how we can approach pregnancy from a place of feeling good about ourselves (maybe for the first time ever).
Every Wednesday (7.30pm UK time) we’ll each grab our favourite hot beverage (hot chocolate here!) and meet virtually to dig deep into our topic for the week.
Before each session, you’ll complete a thought-provoking workbook and send it back to me so I can make sure our chats cover every aspect of what you’re going through, even if you’re too shy to bring it up yourself.
We’ll have our own secret facebook group where we can share our thoughts and experiences between calls and seek support from others who are going through exactly what you are. This will be a super safe, non-judgemental space regardless of size, background, sexuality, health because we are all worthy of love and support. I’ll be available in the group everyday as you fat friendly cheerleader.
There are only a max of 20 spots available for this program to ensure that I can support each of you fully.
Isn’t it unhealthy to try and get pregnant whilst I’m fat?
Am I too fat/not fat enough for this program?
I’m not ready to give up the scales, can I still join?
When are the group calls? What if I can’t make one of the times?
The group calls are at 7.30pm UK time on the following dates. All calls will be recorded so if you can’t make a time, you can watch the replay.
Wednesday 8th August
Wednesday 15th August
Wednesday 22nd August
Wednesday 29th August
Wednesday 5th September
Wednesday 12th September